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12.39pm :: Sat, 14 Feb 04
np: Sarah Brightman - You Take My Breath Away / mOOd:
haha jiro so funny:
J i Ro: un
J i Ro: u know i looooove holding hands
J i Ro: hhahahaha
J i Ro: more than anything
J i Ro: thats what i'll do the WHOLE valentines day.. if i had someone
J i Ro: hold hands for 24 fucking hours
J i Ro: lol*
J i Ro: it will be like hold hands marathon
and Shang:
SWC: Happy FTF Day!
SWC: we kept having these debates about modernization
SWC: and western influences on foreign countries
SWC: then she shot down my dream of me wanting to own my own biz and live in the OC like a yuppy
SWC: of course i played it off smoothly by commenting she was the first person to ever challenge me like that
SWC: and that i was gonna prove her wrong
SWC: hmm there's tension there, but masked by sarcasm and wit
SWC: fun but confusing at the same time
SWC: hehe this is the kind where u start debating and arguing, then the next second u r making out and on the bed
touche. <3
har har. :D
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np: / mOOd: ..
Tues, 10 Feb 04
If you find this, this is for my own reference. Don't take it to heart.
Don't get me wrong. I'm grateful for everything I've been given; everyone who's supported me along the way, every little circumstance that's worked itself out. I love my life: I love my friends, I love my honest, hard-working, doting parents. I love the fact that I've been given this opportunity at an education. I love the people I've met along the way - JSA, ACA two years past, my monkee staff, those people in NSU.TAU.CASA.CA.CSA>>etc and everyone who's been kind enough to exchange words along the way...
My fears are overwhelming. More than anything I am afraid of the possibilities, rather than the reality of it all - I've made some bad decisions before and hope they just don't happen again. But by keeping things in limbo it's going to be the same cycle all over, the same routine day after day: Meeting people. Saying the right things. Checking my own interests against those whose opinions matter to me. Making sure I don't offend anyone. Working for a future that even to myself is uncertain. Blurring the line between black and white just so I can say I've lived every shade of grey...
I am constantly afraid of who and what and where and without consequence I will take whatever action seems (not just necessary or appropriate) but the most fitting in terms of transition. I am plagued by a horrible sense of guilt in saying 'no', every playa's dream come true. I am followed by the ghosts of past relationships and wishes, wishing that they would take me back, vile creatures; all I want is to know what I want. I am afaid that my erratic behavior plagues me, but I don't choose to improve it. I want to be patient, to live life like I truly understand who I am. Who I would like to be. I am afraid of everything imaginable. I'm afraid of failing school, but I won't hesitate to go out on weekdays, staying out till 6am in lieu of a 9am class or partying it up without having read the night before a midterm. I'm afraid of not being able to get a decent job, but can't seem to commit to a real job offer, be it accounting or translation or even retail. I'm afraid of letting people down, but my half-assed efforts don't amount to much in the grand scheme of things. I'm afraid of half-assing things, but can't seem to find the time to do anything properly and/or without regret. I am regretful but unable to change things. I worry about what will happen tomorrow, next week, next month, two years down the road, but can't do my homework or be on time for lecture. I am afraid of ghosts, vampires, things that go 'bump' in the night, but I will wait at a lonely Compton bus stop by myself, walk alone through a deserted Japanese park, and sit, virtually alone, in my quiet fourth floor apt that faces the quiet Federal Building. A room to myself grants me the time and place to rest and recooperate in solitude, but I have people over every night to keep me company. I don't see my roommate or her boyfriend more than five-minute intervals during the week. They hide from me; I hide from them. They're very private people, and I respect that. But the silence can get to be unnerving sometimes. I sit down to my empty desk every night and hope that something, someone is alive in the virtual world so that I won't have to turn off my computer, blown away by the deafening silence without the whirr of the computer fan, face the lonely city skyline alone and watch the blue night sky turn into a blur of lights. I am afraid of my thin, creaky wooden bed. My covers creep above my face at night; I lie awake with my eyes shut tight so at least I won't have to see whatever lurks in my room. I have become afraid of the dark, afraid of quiet rooms, afraid of silence. I do not sleep, except when people come to keep me company. In the past two years I have turned away the three people who have been true and honest in their affections towards me. And though we are all still close, I am constantly afraid of wishing things were different. Of wishing that they would turn out like how they were going to turn out. And in these three long years at LA, away from home, away from my parents, I have moved from being a seventeen-year-old-in-a-triple irritated and frustrated and wishing she'd gone to New York instead, I have become an unsure nineteen-year-old-scared-of-her-own-room. In all my time at school, I have realized I am afraid of everything all at once.and all at once the world is slowly caving in above my head.
11.10pm :: Mon, 26 Jan 04
np: Ok Jyu Hyun - Nan / mOOd: .
Sometimes I think the world would be a much better place if we weren't constantly so scared of what could be. What could happen. What we could've been. So many doubts and yet no reassurances - Look around yourself. Chances are, you're reading Xanga because you have the internet, or access to it. A relatively smaller number of the population has personal computers, or consistent, reliable access to it. I'm not talking about the UCLA student population, or the population of LA residents, but rather everyone else. How many of these people can read? How many people work for virtually nothing on a daily basis? How many people hope and pray for the shelter of a roof over their heads, the warmth of food to eat and clean clothes on their backs, the love of a family beside them to know that they're not alone? Get out of your shallow little bubbles and realize that the world isn't revolving around your life.
Today I want you guys to sit down, and for every rant, every complaint, every negative thought...mention something good that's happened to you recently. Don't say that there's nothing new, or that life sucks, because you know what? Unless you're starving, homeless (Alexxx you don't count), or on the brink of death, you have absolutely no right to any of those claims. In any case, you wouldn't be reading about other people's petty little greviances on an online journal anyway; you'd be out keeping your head above water... Just goes to show you that your own unhappiness is all that holds you back.
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Today, I had the privilege of attending school. I had lunch with friends with good conversation in Westwood. I played lasertag with my staffers. I spoke with my dad on the phone. I used the internet, cable tv, shuttle service; my computer, my tv, my school. My wallet, my bag, my room. Alexxx's car. My CD player, my clothes, my cell phone. My thoughts, my ideas, my life. Make the most of while you still can.
noon :: Sat, 24 Jan 03
np: dido's new album / mOOd:
I see...everyone growing old, getting lives, drifting apart. school, intern, work, career, marriage, kids, work, busy. You think you can fool yourself with these delusions of success by making your life that much harder for yourself...and not just yourself, but others, slapping them in the face, stepping on their dreams, treating them like shit. I see where you're coming from. I know what you're doing. And you know what you've accomplished? You've become someone perfectly incapable of handling their own problems. You're the only responsible one. I know...
...I know because I'm the same way.
5.07pm :: Sat, 10 Jan 03
np: No Doubt - It's My Life / mOOd: *bloop*
Ange bought me a GameCube for Christmas, and I can easily say that it's the bestest thing ever. It's handy for entertaining, esp when mOnkees come over. This past week has been a complete blur of activities - because my memory eludes me, I'm going to copypaste from Xanga:
Mon, 5 Jan 03
*making a long overdue entry because I feel obligated - actually no, just because I'm at Tan's and Tan and Chris and Mike and My have gone to work and Alex is sleeping in the living room and my phone died again last night, and I'm really hungry and haven't been back to my place since Saturday afternoon*
Just got back to LA on Saturday, and it's not that cold here! It's maybe around Oki temperature, just a little colder at night...and of course that should mean extra jackets, but Jen being the idiot that she is doesn't take extra jackets, so she freezes her ass off outside in just one sweater and a pair of boots that maims her toes so that her feet are no longer straight...
But I had fun!!
Torie and her dad picked me up from the airport on Saturday, only from a No Stopping zone, so her dad ended up getting fined $65 for trying to get my luggage in the trunk. To celebrate, he treated us to Islands for lunch (mmm ranch fries - they don't have these at home), then carried my bags upstairs to my apt, ignoring the strategic positioning of my roomate's brother and his gf making out in the living room, and took me and Tor to Victoria's Secret for the Semi-Annual Bra Sale. w00t. I love parents. Be glad your parents live in the same city/county/state/country, hehehe.
So we went shopping at VS and Aahs!, got some pretty good purchases for ourselves... I picked up Lion King 1/2 (GBA) at EB for $20 mwahaha, reminscent of 6th grade memories of watching the movie over and over and over and over to memorize the lines and sing the songs and mimic the movements... Aw yeah, my childhood was a productive one.
I'm craving... Korean BBQ.
And then...chilled with T in Cafe Zip in K-town.. Got the Sex on the Beach II (such a beauuutiful drink) and some sweet potato fries, then ran over to Greenblatt's in WeHo for some roast beef sandwich and a fatass pickle... Got kicked out, so ran back to T's and ate it before falling asleep at like FiVE and then waking up panicking at 11:30am to three missed calls, two voicemails, and dimsum beckoning me out the door fast enuff to put on my chain boots in ten minutes flat (ooO baby - too bad it didn't work on T to get him out of bed ). So many many phone calls later, went to eat at NBC in Alhambra with Shang, Derek, Derek's roomie Matt, alexxxxxan, Tan, Janet and Danny at like TWOfreakinPM...but it was soooo good. Ohhh sooo good. Alex and Matt would visualize the food, me and Tan would attempt to describe it in really lame terms, and Shang and Derek and Janet did all the translating while Danny poured us tea quite skillfully, much better than me and Janet dribbling all over the tablecloth anyway.
And and and, then chilled at Tapioca Express analyzing the new mini white boba (Thanks Shaaaaang for my caramel macchiato and a Guess giftcard...ahaha stealing my stuff was slick )... Went back to Tan's, spent some quality time with F-Zero, Halo, and Drunken Master (the movie, not Tan...though Tan did get nice and purply trashed). Met up with My, Mike, Trini, two Robs, Todd and Haruna and had dinner at Raku on Sawtelle... Mmm best new izakaya ever! Good convo over dinner, well, at least for me...talking...to myself... But that's okay, played with Alexxx's phone and convinced myself to get one, now that okay reception and number portability have finally worked themselves into the Sprint/AT&T markets (or am I on crack?)
aaaaand and and, came back to Tan's, watched Family Guy, played some Melee, lay awake most of the night..and now I'm hungreeeeee! *eats keyboard*
Tues, 6 Jan 03
So once again I'm up at five-freaking-am...waiting for the sun to rise, perhaps? To anyone who tried to call / text / phoneAiM me on either Sunday or Monday, I'm sooo sorry... My phone died once again and I didn't get back to my place till about 8:30pm Monday to charge it.
Tonite I had a nice, chill arcade run with Rob and Tor in K-town, where we hit up the DDR / IIDX / Pasha! games like we used to do every week in the summer... I'm finding myself not as interested in games as before, esp since I've been playing DDR for about six years now, Beatmania for four, and my old arcade crews have fallen out of games faster than mullets went out of style (okay, bad analogy - but how come they're so freakin popular in Asia now??). But really, I'm not that interested, I went to the game stores with Dan maybe..twice? when I was back home... And when I went out on my own, I found myself staring at the displays for an hour or so before I drove back home empty-handed and alone at two am. My last night I ended up making an insane Book Box Chameleon Club run and buying Marvel vs. Capcom 2, the new Taiko game, and Harvest Moon: Friends of Mineral Town (the girl version). *shrugs* I've played two outta the three, and they're just..alright. I did get a nice DVD with the FFXII, Metal Gear: Twin Snakes, and Fatal Frame: Crimson Butterfly trailers though..
But anyway, we chilled at Monte Carlo with Alexxx afterwards... who later kicked my ass playin MvC2 and is now crashed on my couch... remniscent of earlier today, bwahaha. *shrugs* I'm still up...WHY? Because I'm an idiot.
Despite all the late-night boba runs, I'm still a morning person. I love waking up to the first rays of sunlight streaming through the window and a warm cozy blanket, eating warm soupy rice and sitting in front of the TV playing some morning rounds of a game while relaxing to a good CD. I love being able to put down the game when I feel like it and have friends stop by to see if I want to get a good lunch somewhere. I love finding a nice restaurant with a quaint, but extra-super-aw yeah-the-day-is-just-beginning menu. I love sipping tea and watching people trundle leisurely by the window. I love going shopping for nothing at all, walking past the shops, browsing through clothes and books and magazine cutouts for my collage that never happens. I love meeting up with friends in the middle of a Sunday stroll filled with sunlight, warmth, laughter. I love sitting on the beach catching up on old times, playing in the waves and not caring what time it is until the sky turns pink, red, violet. But there are things that only the night brings: I love being warmed up with a cozy dinner, followed by a juicy dessert, surprised by more friends at the restaurant and being completely blown away by just how well they all get along together. Good view, good meal, good company. I love hugs, given randomly just because we're all carefree, young at heart, love life, love love for what it is and not because of the direction it gives our lives. love gazing over the city lights, looking up at the night sky as the freeway passes by and wondering where I would be if I hadn't chosen this path, if I wasn't fortunate enough to have such great friends. If I hadn't decided to even come out to play with everyone. I love colorful Christmas lights, warm chocolate chip cookies, the unpressure of having the time and freedom to do things, to get things done, and still be pleasantly surprised at how well everything falls into place...
Maybe I'm not a morning person...or much of an anything person. I'm too appreciative with the beauty of it all to be so specific, at the risk of sounding incredibly corny. So once again I'm up at 6am, typing furiously away at Xanga at the hopes of capturing what's left of the poetic spirit that once made me mad, miserable, obsessed with the ability to sit down and write whatever came to mind. These 5am-night runs have taken their toll on my ability to wake up with the sun. I guess I'll do some cleaning till the sun rises again... Cheers, to whoever's reading.
Wed, 7 Jan 03
What happened today?? I think we drank at Tan's, again. Me and Alexxx busted out the Plum Wine with GOLD FLAKES in it <3 and we ate all of My's churro chips while Tan ate all my "Onion Flavored Rings" P: Aaaand I'm addicted to Bacardi Razz, that stuff tastes like sprite with raspberry extract :D So now Tan is my supplier teehee.. You can use my GameCoobe anytime you want beb! Crashed around 5am, leaving Alexxx and Brian to play LOTR till 11-freaking-am... That's dedication right there. If only we could do that with homework.
Thurs, 8 Jan 03
Ahhh...the first day of school. Ran to school around 12, where Paul, Christine, and Alexxx were chillin by where the ACA table was supposed to be. That just blew me away; even when we're on campus, we're still all linked to ACA so strongly that we still table without a banner! Went to Milton and sat on the floor with Fancy... My prof looks like the German lady who does the countdown in Austin Powers ahaha. Then headed over to J130a where there were a gazillion people from 101b AND Jennifer-in-all-my-Japanese-classes-but-not-the-same-person-Chung <3 It's nice how the Japanese major is so small. Walked back with T and fell asleep (so sorrie Tor!!)..then ran back to save the laundry that was still chillin downstairs. Did some laundry, called some mOnkees... Ate dinner at the dorms courtesy of Debs, who ran down just to swipe us in, and of course Alexxx who dropped off Paul at the dorms, then RAN from DeNeve just to walk me to the dorms bwahaha. Court joined Paul and Alexxx at the GameCoobe for awhile while Tor and I stressed about what to wear to Hi-Life (the Lambda party at Club Lush)... Eventually, Karen, Debbie, Tor, Alexxx and I hauled ass on Wilshire only to find out we were going the wrong way >< By the time we got there, it was 1am and they wouldn't let us in, despite Terry trying to coerce the security guard for us. *shakes head* So we headed back to Ktown for some SoJu goodness at ChingU, eating boiled peanuts and spicy soup and sippin watermelon soju... Good times with my clubbin crew (:
2.10pm :: Mon, 29 Dec 03
np: No Doubt (playin in my head) / mOOd:
"You see in the past I had a dream
A fantasy
I thought that we would last
Become a little family
Then one, two, three, four
The years were flying by
They soared
You see it's hard to face
The addict that's inside of me
I want to fill my glass up
With you constantly
I've been here before
Let's end it on this
Geive me one last kiss
Let's end it on this
Let's end it on this..."
Why won't this get out of my head?
Oh, and I want a GameCoobe. Silly, materialistic, little me. I'll never learn to make up my *damn mind.
8.35am :: Mon, 22 Dec 03
np: / mOOd:
15 Years Ago, I:
1) was 4 years old
2) was happy watching Charlie Brown / Heathcliff reruns
3) had a pair of Playboy Bunny PJs made by my mom
4) was obsessed with TMNT (who wasn't?)
5) thought sliding down the wooden plank in our house, aside from the chickens on the hill was the coolest thing on earth
10 Years Ago, I:
1) was 9 years old
2) had just switched schools across the base
3) had a sticker collection that took up 3 composition notebooks
4) liked to sit at home on weekends playing Earthbound, eating Hamburger Helper, and watching SNiCK / Nick At Night / The X-Files
5) read some vampire lesbian smut in the "romance novel" aisle
5 Years Ago, I:
1) was 14 years old
2) hung out with the "Raptor Clan", a crew of StarCraft players
3) made up a "retarded raptor dance" to spite the hardcore players
4) walked everywhere cuz we weren't allowed to drive off-base
5) played DDR every day after school with LerOY, my DDR buddy (:
3 Years Ago, I:
1) was 16 years old
2) graduated high school thinking that Oki sucked / hoping to be a super ultra-cool Neurosurgeon at UCLA and part of the Chinese mafia with my gangsta boyfriends
3) was still part of a 18-month long-distance relationship
4) was crushed when I didn't get into the Biomedical Engineering / English program at Columbia, or couldn't afford to go to NYU at $32,000 a pop
5) had my own car..but still couldn't drive off-base..legally
1 Year Ago, I:
1) was 18 years old
2) went back to Malaysia, got fat offa foods laden with coconut milk, loaded up on Famous Amos cookies (the best cookies in the world), did some good shopping, but basically resolved never to live in such a place
3) spent most of the summer lounging around the house
4) hung out with Dan and Nate on the rafts at the beach all day
5) went mad game hunting in GHETTO TOWN GUSHiKAWA <3
6 Months Ago, I:
1) was still 18 years old
2) spent the summer in LA wondering if I could ever get a job / driver's license / immersed in club life at UCLA
3) debated moving up in ACA
4) tabled like hell
5) started an obsession with Guess
1 Month Ago, I:
1) was 19 years old
2) Torie and I (and, of course, MY and her crew) had hit up nearly every party every week since school started
3) went out every day, usually with Tor, eating fancy dinners and going bougie shopping just cos I could
4) had had the same cold for about a month
5) loved every minute of pretending like I couldn't care less
1 Week Ago, I:
1) tried to push the thought of finals far, far away
2) took a nice, long nap
3) played an excessive number of games of Jump Forever (GBA game)
4) got some very pretty Christmas presents (thanks T and Rob!)
5) wondered if I should try to write my 8-page paper
Yesterday, I:
1) felt a cold resurfacing
2) went to see the 2million Christmas lights at the Kanucha Bay Villas
3) ate some very good tomato/cabbage soup with pork tenderloin at the Nikko Alivila Hotel
4) bought a Christmas ice cream cake for the neighbors
5) had some really, really good cheese
Today, I:
1) woke up at 6:50, again
2) am going shopping in NAHA <3
3) but have go pay bills first
4) ordered some Disney teacups as a Christmas present for my mom
5) have absolutely no idea what to buy people as Christmas gifts
Tomorrow, I:
1) will spend the day with my parents
My Top 3 Bad Habits:
1) going out all the time
2) and yet still having an excessive phone bill
3) committment, lack thereof
My Top 3 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1) Christmas. I love you all!
10.45pm :: Mon, 1 Dec 03
np: ayu - vogue / mOOd: wow these song titles fit well
I'm getting worse and worse at finishing things on time. Last night I had an eight page paper to write and promptly fell asleep... only to wake up at 7.30am figuring that I didn't write any of it. And I haven't even started it yet. *shakes head* So, in due time with good ol' procrastination even PAST the due date, I'm making a Christmas wishlist!:
Tiffany's Bean Necklace - $325
Tiffany's Starfish Necklace - $1,400
salamander with a mouth! - $36
Baby Phat Faux Mink Jacket - $200
Suzuki WAGON-R - $20,000(?)
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Just kidding!! (:
A|X safety pin cuff
A|X Long Leather Gloves (soooo hot)
A|X Angora Hoodie, paper/black
A|X Collared Cardigan, thistle/black
A|X Lace-up Sweater, black
ANYTHING from the Volcom Store!!
e.g. Star Shirt
e.g. "Posh" off-shoulder top
e.g. Spraypainted Logo Hoodie, white
...or a ride to the Volcom store will do (;
Guess cargo skirt, white (26)
Guess Collection "Avenue" pants, black (27)
A|X Sheer Sweater
Guess pinstripe skirt (26)
Guess Collection silky camisole (S)
Guess Collection rhinestone asymmetrical dress (S)
Crate & Barrel Fondue Set!
Disclaimer: I don't really need any of these things...haha. That's to say, I'd be happy with a simple IM, phone call, or visit just to say Merry Christmas (:
Presents I've bought for others:
For friends from home, Nick and Jay
 
For Dorie, in black
...that's not all!! :D
8.28am :: Sat, 29 Nov 03
np: Ayu - Dearest (acoustic orchestra) / mOOd: awake
Happy Thanksgiving Break, everyone! :D
A lil update from Seattle... What's in Seattle, you ask? I've been chillin with my two best friends from home, Nick and Jay, and some of their friends here. Nick flew in from NY for the weekend, and since Jay and Jason came to visit me in LA before, I figured I'd come up from LA (: Last night Nick and Jay came to pick me up at the airport, after which Jay's mom promptly stuffed us with some really really good Korean sushi (pork, carrots, radish, spinach, mushrooms, egg), smoked chicken, and some shrimp/asparagus soup. Right after that we headed over to the ATO frat house to pick up Jason to go Karaoke in the international district... This area of Seattle is so different from LA. It's so wooded and..just.. quiet. The frat house was sitting in mud and fallen leaves, nothing at all like LA...but pleasant. We walked around Chinatown, which looks pretty much like downtown LA - just as scary and run-down at night. We met up with some pretty cool people (what can I say - I've always been a faghag (; ) for karaoke, where we bonded over Savage Garden and Kylie Minogue... It's been awhile, for sure.
What have I learned? My friends are always up for anything. I can call them up, without hesitation, and ask them to come out to play. Nick is still the same, just as brandwhorish and accomodating (in his own, strange way)... Jay's found an outlet of friends who share the same weird-funny humor. It works out pretty well.. When they asked me if I was wearing the newest fashions, I didn't know what to say. Somewhere along the line, I picked up some sort of affinity to brands.. I mean, not that I wasn't addicted to brandname stuff in Japan, but I remember freshman year, when I marvelled at how everyone owned Express jeans, Rocketdog platform black flipflops, a tan cord jacket from Macy's and a $40 tank top from their favorite stores (A&F, AE, etc etc). I don't think I'm THAT representative of LA (I was wearing a Guess jacket, Guess stretch cargos, and a Guess chain belt), but I suppose I have my moments. And now I'm pretty addicted to all the Bev Center has to offer (; I brought Jay's mom pretty Godiva chocolates as a thank-you...and Jay and Nick A|X sweaters for Thanksgiving/Christmas/21st b-day presents. Who says shopping for guys isn't fun?! I found a nice cream sweater and blue crewneck with grey stripes and the new A|X logo for Jay, and a really soft black sweater that has double zippers all up the left side for Nick. What else? I forget exactly how deeply the club mentality is ingrained into me... How much ACA and JSA define my life. *shrugs* It all just comes into perspective when you look at it...
Well, I should be writing my paper. Another day: Tonight we're having dinner at the SpaceNeedle! Email me and tell me how life in Cali is!!!
10.08pm :: Tues, 18 Nov 03
np: whirrr of the computer fan / mOOd: panicking
So when I should be doing the 8-page paper that I haven't yet begun to write for TOMORROW, I'm chatting with Dorie (akemi) about those oh-so-important politics of the dating game:
Trufs: it'd be so easy if we could just have it w/o any repercussions
Trufs: damn emotions!
akemi: LOL
akemi: but then we'd just be...gay males :P
Trufs: gay sluts!
Trufs: w00!!
akemi: LOL
akemi: we're faghags because we wish to live vicariously through the commitmentless life of the typical gay male
Trufs: oOOoO
akemi: it's my duty to get [a friend] some booty!
akemi: you have to make connections
Trufs: yeah
Trufs: but it's hard
Trufs: cuz you have to do COUPLEY things to get connections
akemi: it took us 2 years to become this close jyennn
Trufs: haha
akemi: ;-)
Trufs: we have to DATE for TWO YEARS to get close to someone??
akemi: i think if we spent more time all together we'd get closer
Trufs: screw that, i'm gonna live in a beach house with my 348934 cats
akemi: because common ground builds on previous experiences
Trufs: RA!
akemi: lol youre gonna be one of those single women with a bilion cats
...and proud! :D
9.36am :: Sat, 15 Nov 03
np: Lisa - why do fools fall in love / mOOd: ..
picnic with my monkees today, then showing of NWC tonight, hopefully. daich and andy w/ PSO somewhere between today and tomorrow, and ange's bday event tomorrow if she doesn't get taken in by jay and court feels up to coming... class/mtg all day monday, eight-pager due wednesday.
phew!
11.20pm :: Sat, 8 Nov 03
np: Jane - Sea of Tears / mOOd: w00t
Just got back from ACA Karaoke / NSU Meltdown / All-Staff Bonding and at a loss for words..
More later.
8.07am :: Fri, 7 Nov 03
np: Amuro - I WiLL / mOOd: awake
On a random note, sometimes I get jealous of all those Asian girls... I'm working on growing my hair out, but I'll never highlight it in chunks or come to a party wearing nothing but a piece of string. And I'll never be that totally confident, stick-thin girl freaking her friends in the cage with guys cheering us on. But that doesn't matter, really. I'm happy with who I am, and nothing's gonna stop me and Torie from hitting up all the parties. Another party last night: Underworld's JOURNEY at Century Club. It first off, Shang was promoting that night, so he totally swept us off our feet with his authority. (; And, compared to the other clubs we've been to, the Century club is totally BLiNG. It's a great atmosphere.
HA! I have officially conquered you, sleep! I do not need you!! Sleeping hours for the night: 4.30am-7.45am *bleary-eyed*
9.09pm :: Thurs, 6 Nov 03
np: Bada - A Day of Renewal / mOOd: w00!
Ahh, today went much better than expected. I got a much-needed 3 hours of sleep this morning after watching the sun rise... Then rested to the glow of burning blue sky at dusk, waking up at 9.45. Got ready in an hour (record time!), and headed off to campus to table. Chilled on Bruinwalk till about 3.30, then got some taco bell and chocolate milk tea (mmm) and trundled off to class. Spoke up since NO ONE else would. You know those classes where the professor will ask a question, pausing for what's supposed to be a quick, snappy response, but gets no reply for FiVE solid minutes of silence? *shakes head* And no one had read (or would fess up to having read) Great Expectations... X: Headed back to campus for a quick JSA meeting and a nice dinner at Sak's... It was nice chillin with JSA for a change. *shrugs* Guess you really have to talk to people to understand their perspective... It's all bout communication, after all (:
It was a nice, slow day that passed by rather smoothly. Like butta.
"Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well, yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more, perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." - Paul Bowles (John Malkovitch), The Sheltering Sky
5.38am [ohh yes] :: Thurs, 6 Nov 03
np: m:g - what do you remember / mOOd: lalala
I'm having too much fun with CuteFTP and AiM. (:
I'm so glad it's Thursday again! Time to anticipate the weekend!! Today is the Underworld party at Century Club.. Tomorrow's ACA Karaoke Night and NSU's Meltdown. I'm (without an outfit but) excited (;
I went and saw Matrix Revolutions today... I'm a total non-fan of the Matrix trilogy, but I like to keep my friends company while I take a two hour nap (: So we went to see the 10:15 showing in Westwood, and it wasn't all that bad. It had its moments...parts from Star Wars, Darkness Falls, sappy Steven Spielberg movies, and, of course, the infamous Dragonball fight scene. <3 But it was pretty hokey... The action scenes were good, the animation smooth.
I'm tempted to get a Gamecube... Pikmin, Monkey Ball, Smash Brothers Melee, Mario Party, Link, Phantasy Star, and Animal Crossing... :D GC + 7 games + 4 controllers = $$$! That'll add up to be at least $300...*thinking*
Argh, it's 6am.
Out of a certain nostalgia for home (I've only been away for what, two months?), I want to take everyone home with me! None of them read this, but cheers...to chillin on the beach with chu-hais and cigs and hanabi late at night. 
Who's down for a trip to Japan over Spring Break?! :D
3.50pm :: Sat, 1 Nov 03
np: Crystal Kay - Candy / mOOd: *boing*
Yay for lazy Sunday afternoons that are really SATURDAY!
Highlight of Halloween: ACA Potluck at Janet's and then a party at Marc's afterward :D
Torie and I decided to go as dominatrixes...
We shared my (ACA) husband Shang...and Tan:
 
Pics (l-r): The very beautiful host Janet. Tor, Nan, Court, me. Something, I don't know what. Part of my loving fam! Crazy party animal My. Aaand something else.
Conroy pimpin it.
Later, at Marc's:
hahahahaha.
What a great Halloween (: <3
4.36am :: Fri, 31 Oct 03
np: m-flo loves melody n ryohei t - miss you / mOOd: bla!
The Cirque Pumpkin Bash hosted by CLiMAX was tonight, so Juli, Mike, My, Torie, Nancy, and I trundled over to Hollywood for the festivities...but not before missing Mike just as he left, making Janet and Juli wait downstairs while I struggled to find a ride for Torie and Nancy, not knowing where the venue was, not being able to decide how to dress or drink absolut out of a water bottle without spilling it down my shirt. Finally, after much ado, Torie, Nancy, and I took one car over to Hollywood to check out the scene..
and, after all that, this party blew. It really, really blew. Random guys would try to hit on Torie, or try to squeeze into our circle...
After about half an hour of scratchy music and awful rapping, I was ready to leave. But, just at that moment, Juli started dancing with a bear.
Now, the rest of the dance (being that we were all still sober), that was priceless. 
Chalk one up to learning (:
3.35 :: Thurs, 30 Oct 03
np: Crystal Kay feat Sphere and Islaon wow / mOOd: wheee!
Pics from a local excursion to Universal CityWalk :D
7.09pm :: Sun, 26 Oct 03
np: / mOOd:
So, with the advent of blogs and file-sharing programs like CuteFTP, I've become more inclined to update my life online rather than on paper. But that's okay, all the more interesting for everyone else :D I mean...what's life without reading other people's blogs and looking at pics? C'mon people.. I know you're third years and becoming increasingly busier..but you can still update!
What has Jen been doing, you ask? ...I can't even begin to remember, so I'm gonna have to go by the calendar. *shakes head* Warning: Illustrated story ;)
Let's start from the last time I updated...
10/4 (Sat) ACA Picnic, bright and early Saturday morning. Despite the fact that I've been involved with ACA for three years now, this was my first ACA Picnic. We played some crazy icebreaker games (Tan's "I Saw A Bear" game was awesome) and fought over the stereo:
10/10 REDLiNE! Aww yeah the first party of the year. To prep, Ange took Court and I to go shopping in the valley. They bought a ton of clothes at some Forever 21-like stores, and I got a cute off-the-shoulder top for $7 :D Later we chilled at Ange's house, where Court took a nap while Ange and I made fried rice. Then I promptly woke Court up by thwapping her with the green tea pillow. It was like being part of a family again (: And, of course, not being satisfied with what we had, we trundled to the Bev Center and looked for shoes... Coming back sucked, cos we got stuck in traffic and still had to pick up Torie/Y.Lee/Bonnie and get ready, but we finally made it to the dance around 9.30... I stopped working around 11 and went in search of my frens... And daaaaaaaamn...what a dance.
And then we went to BCD :D
Adventures in K-town: Post-Dinner Drinks at Cafe Friends... Green apple and mango soju :D
Vic's Party on Saturday:
3.00am :: Fri, 3 Oct 03
np: NiN - We're In This Together Now / mOOd: ...
Today was the orientation meetings for both JSA and ACA. While both, despite minor glitches, ran very smoothly, it was a little saddening to see how different they were from previous years. A surprising number of Japanese people showed up to the JSA meeting, despite having only tabled for two days: Out of 77 signups, 50 people became members, and over a 100 signed up for the BBQ on Saturday, all due to the strong member base and the dazzling reputation they established last year. A disappointing number of people showed up for the ACA meeting, but the skit was great, the audience was laughing and applauding, and everyone stuck around for wontons afterward. I don't know any of the freshmen, and most of the JSA members are Japanese-Japanese, transfer students from Japan or community colleges somewhere along the coast. I feel out of place, but in a kind of insider-ish way: Crystal and I had a great time reminiscing about the way things used to be, way back when...and Shang, Matt, and I got together for some good ol' BJ's Buffalo Chicken Pizza in Westwood. I had a good time; I hope everyone else did too... Why do I feel so old?
9.56pm :: Mon, 29 Sept 03
np: Chemistry - Koisuru Karen / Yellowcard - Only One / mOOd: ...
While everyone's so busy and hyped up with all the work they have to do, I've been caught up by the insomniac bug. Yes, I wake up early, around 8 or so when the construction gets too loud to bear and the sunlight streams prettily in through my 4th floor window. And yes, I do go out late at night for boba and arcades and shaved ice. And yes, I do stay up very late on the computer doing absolutely nothing at all. I don't sleep during the day, because there's always somewhere to go, something new to see, someone to visit during the day. Life is bountiful, beautiful, plentiful with everything going on all at once. Why miss out on something because you were sleeping?
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